Exploratory inner work is exponentially harder than 'real' work

The much safer bet is to just get your diet consistent, work hard, try and get work done and push everyday.

There's no need to go all in on day 1, but everytime you make a bad decision, confront yourself.

Realize that you're the master of your body and mind. Instead of unraveling why it's so hard and why you're this way, try and act in the present in a manner that's good for you.

Instinctively we all have a pretty good idea of what we need to be doing we just don't do it.

But real work — which is fitness, food, consistent routine and staying away from negative triggers — will yield a ton of rewards and build a healthy optimistic base from which to self analyze yourself.

Before that pre-requisite, do not try it because revelations about yourself will depress you even more if you're in a sorry state.

Rebuttal

I don't want to wait to be perfect before I start fixing things about myself.

Perfection is not required, it's the bare minimum to exercise thrice a week, not consume outside dopamine spiking food a lot, wake up and see the sun and staying away from constant reels and trash media.

This base will regulate your emotions and help you think about yourself from a more optimistic base.

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Exploratory inner work is hard, extremely hard. It's actually harder than physical changes because you can get tangled up in a web of complex psychological terms. The space is hazy and not all of it is definite.

Science hasn't defined all of it and you could have a juxtaposition of conditions and tendencies that you won't even understand yourself. Even more, attributing trauma and self pity is very easy because the brain often believes what it wants to believe and so wherever your emotions align more naturally — rage, self pity, moral grayness — it will choose to believe those traumas and use them as an excuse.

A negative pattern is a learned pattern.

Why you do it is less important than knowing you have to stop and trying to stop is much easier than rooting out the cause of why it happened in the first place.

By eradicating it you might get closer to the cause as well but understanding the cause is exponentially hard.

Requires careful non biased self reflection and a recorded memory or journal of thoughts to see how your thoughts have evolved. Also very volatile because anytime you consume a piece of media, listen to a song you could wipe all progress and gravitate to that state.

Hence the

'we up'

'im so shit'

cycles.